{Remebering B&C}

Let us take things as we find them: let us not attempt to distort them into what they are not. We cannot make facts. All our wishing cannot change them. We must use them

{HardToSwallow}

I can't let go and I can't move on, I can't, I won't, I'll try.
I can't let go and I can't move on, I can't, I won't, I'll cry.. again

Wish it was for the last time, but it hurts as much as the first time.
And these tears are permanent, every time I look at your face,
I'll trace a memory, a picture, a faint portrait of happy.

Once upon a time, I portrayed the image of __________,

I can't snap back, I just let the tears eat at my soul,
and suddenly I find myself, in the waiting room,
waiting for a little pill to make it go away.

Please Doctor,
Please make it go away.
The jagged edges of my broken heart are making this hurt more then it should.
Erase my memory, Erase my dreams, Erase Reality.
I promise I'll forgive you, fore I won't remember.

{open}{CLOSED}

{FALLing Down}

The leaves are falling off the trees
about as fast as my tears fall into my lap.
Did I do one big circle?

The chill in the air,
is as cold as my heart.

What happened to the burning passion I once felt?

Where did my confidence go? Has it been placed into a paper bag, like the dead spring?
Have I truly let it all come down to this.

I

L
o
v
e

Y
o
u

{fleckinhobbinhollow}

Your best shot at happiness, self-worth and personal satisfaction - the things that constitute real success - is not in earning as much as you can but in performing as well as you can something that you consider worthwhile

{Restating the Obvious}

We ignore those who adore us. Adore those who ignore us. Hurt those who love us, and love those who hurt us. People you know become people you knew, & that one person who once made you feel amazing, will suddenly make you feel the worst you've ever felt. Life is about trusting your feelings and taking chances, losing and finding happiness, appreciating the memories, & learning from the past. And eventually realizing things change, and so do people.

Some prices are just too high, no matter how much you may want the prize. The one thing you can't trade for your heart's desire is your heart.

We ignore those who adore us. Adore those who ignore us. Hurt those who love us, and love those who hurt us. People you know become people you knew, & that one person who once made you feel amazing, will suddenly make you feel the worst you've ever felt. Life is about trusting your feelings and taking chances, losing and finding happiness, appreciating the memories, & learning from the past. And eventually realizing things change, and so do people.

{Trufe}

Honest differences are often a healthy sign of progress

{I'll form the sentences, you try to interpret}

{WetBlanket}

{DayDreamin}

I like the story this tells even though it is rap.

{Horoscope}

If you have been trying to avoid making a commitment, you may not be able to escape any longer. But your current options might not include the one you really want. You could become so discouraged that you're tempted to throw your hands up in the air and just walk away. But accepting defeat won't make you any happier. It's better to admit your dissatisfaction and continue to search for common ground. Be patient; you'll find a way through this uncomfortable dilemma.

{DearClyde}

We all carry around so much pain in our hearts. Love and pain and beauty. They all seem to go together like one little tidy confusing package. It's a messy business, life. It's hard to figure--full of surprises. Some good. Some bad.
Accept.Love.Next.

Words to live by

{TerriblyTrue}

You are receiving mixed messages now and you don't particularly like it. On one hand, you are being pulled along into a swiftly moving current that could actually carry you to distant seas. On the other hand, your forward movement is meeting resistance, which only makes you want to push harder. Avoid the temptation to make something happen today. You'll be much better off if you can wait.

I'm not a good 'pretender'
How can I be expected to 'pretend'
When your eyes meet mine,
it's like I am staring in to the bathroom mirror,
leaning against the counter,
gripping the sides for balance,
and not making eye contact for the sheer pleasure of making
curiosity linger.

{ReturnToSender}

Dreams are postcards from our subconscious, inner self to outer self, right brain trying to cross that moat to the left. Too often they come back unread: "return to sender, addressee unknown." That's a shame because it's a whole other world out there--or in here depending on your point of view

{Letting Go}

Even if you don't want it,
It is hard to let it go.
It is hard to let it walk out of your life.
It is even harder to let it stand by.
New found love is meaningful.
But old love is never forgotten, no matter how much one wants to do so.

FmL

Dear Karma

I've never backed down, I've always stood up.
I don't bite my tongue.

I'm afraid of falling...
and spiders.

I'm stupidly smart.

I'm amazingly open about who I am

I'm honest, not patient,
dieing to live, and living to die.

Hold my hand, let's go swimming.

{Horoscope}

A lot of your world is hidden from the view of others now. Even if they believe they know what's going on, you realize how much you are keeping to yourself these days. It's easy for you to offer up a thought or an emotion that's controversial enough to draw the attention away from a more significant issue that you're not willing to discuss. There's no need to explain your actions to anyone today; bring up your deeper concerns in a few days when you are ready.

{Here I am}

Just when things get good, they get complicated by someone, who doesn't deserve the right, to give a fuck about what I do and who I do it with.
fuck my life.

{Speechless}

fuck it

Utter infatuation
becomes my new god,
love, my new fear
dream and waking
one thought in my mind
runs a marathon
and forgets to stop
at the finish line
runs night and day
through darkness
through the rain
I hear a voice,
so soft
tickling my ears
as if it were a feather
and my heart
plays the drums
in my chest
a woman of ten
thousand words
is left speechless
as the man with the maniacal laughter
whispers sweet everythings
into her ear

Sorry that I can't be your friend..
Friends don't do that to each other.

It's keeping an open mind,
when you can't keep an open heart.

It's always forgiving,
but never being able to forget.

It's remembering, that you loved someone so much,
you pushed them away, and deliberately at that,
all to keep a secret.


It's staring back at him,
over dinner,
after so long,
with a smile,
when all you want to do is cry.

Some things are better left
unsaid,
unheard,
unfelt,
unopened.

Emotions pulling,
Heart felt pounding,
Open eyes,
Heavy feet,
Mind is swimming,
Legs are shaking,
And it's all because,
he touched me,
kissed me,
sang just for me,
It felt like the tiny music notes were
dancing through my veins.

I'm stuck in an envelope of sheet music, and
I've never felt more real.

And now she will wonder if every day is the last day.

And now your feelings have changed..

What the fuck is up with these butterflies...
It's been a long while...

It's a strange feeling,
This feeling,
This,
It's in the way.

It's the caress, the fingers that run down my back,
That trace every part of me,
Releasing
Pure
Pleasure,
Through a touch, who knew.

It's a strange feeling,
This feeling,
This...
It's in the way you do it.

IWU

Too shy to ask the question,
she only wonders of rejection,
Feelings knotted,
hard to undo,
she only wonders of you,
and your thoughts,
say something.

if i told you things i did before
told you how i used to be
would you go along with someone like me
if you knew my story word for word
had all of my history
would you go along with someone like me

i did before and had my share
it didn't lead nowhere
i would go along with someone like you
it doesn't matter what you did
who you were hanging with
we could stick around and see this night through

and we don't care about the young folks
talkin' 'bout the young style
and we don't care about the old folks
talkin' 'bout the old style too
and we don't care about their own faults
talkin' 'bout our own style
all we care 'bout is talking
talking only me and you

usually when things has gone this far
people tend to disappear
no one will surprise me unless you do

i can tell there's something goin' on
hours seems to disappear
everyone is leaving i'm still with you

it doesn't matter what we do
where we are going too
we can stick around and see this night through

and we don't care about the young folks
talkin' 'bout the young style
and we don't care about the old folks
talkin' 'bout the old style too
and we don't care about their own faults
talkin' 'bout our own style
all we care 'bout is talking
talking only me and you

and we don't care about the young folks
talkin' 'bout the young style
and we don't care about the old folks
talkin' 'bout the old style too
and we don't care about their own faults
talkin' 'bout our own style
all we care 'bout is talking
talking only me and you
talking only me and you

talking only me and you
talking only me and you

Bonnie and Clyde

To be or not to be,
That is the question.

When it's real, it's not supposed to make sense

Your hands are amazing,
oh the things they can do,
strum the cords, strike the keys,
run them over me

Your eyes are captivating,
deep, inviting, smiling,
sincerity, honesty,
all I've ever looked for.

Your lips are addicting,
funny how they fit perfectly against mine.

I'm holding the star, but can you find the sun.

I'm open

I could lay here forever, and just breathe you in
I could breathe you in forever and just lay here

{May}

SHOULD YOU KISS ME
Joy

Should you place your hands upon me
run your fingers through my hair
should you tilt my chin to witness
how my skin glows when you’re near
should you lean a little closer
place your lips upon my cheek
should you clasp me firmly to you
as my legs feel frail and weak
should your fingertips still linger
on my arm as you walk by
should your presence make me quiver
and your smell make me high
should your lips look so inviting
when you smile your wicked smile
should your words sound so exciting
when you whisper “stay awhile”
should my breathing start to labour
as you take my hand to dance
should I grant you one small favour
when you whisper “take a chance”
should my fears be all unfounded
as my body cleaves to yours
should your arms come up around me
while allaying all my fears
as your lips keep coming closer
and there's no time now to blink
cos my head is swimming madly
and I find it hard to think.........

{Random Want}

I think everyone should carry a pocket/key chain ashtray (yes they have those)
think about what cigarettes do to the vegetation from the chemicals leaking in to the soil, as we throw our cigarettes to the ground and walk away.

What should we do with them after, I'm not sure, any suggestions?

I feel a new trend coming on.

Let's be environmentally friendly
<3 think about our kids and their environments future<3

cuz I just don't love you like that

Sometimes it takes an explosion, of a negative emotion,
to realize how much you love someone,
Sometimes it takes time apart, living in different houses, hanging with non mutual friends, learning about you, growing a bit, getting more comfortable in your skin, to realize that the person you are because of it, allows you to love the person you deemed impossible to love.
Nothing has ever felt so right.

This is the 2nd first day of my life too.

And I can't breath around you
I can't think, I can't talk
All that wants to shine is my hatred.
You're my biggest flaw.

It's challenging for you to follow along with someone else's reasoning today. Even if everything makes sense on the surface, you know that a big piece of the current puzzle is falling outside your imagination. It's time for big changes. An opportunity is being presented and it's up to you not to miss it. Take a chance and talk about your feelings now, and then listen carefully to the constructive feedback you receive.

The only thing you'll get from me,
is a wave when I walk away.

The only thing you'll get from me,
is a look of I told you so.

You can lie all you want, and she may believe your words,
But I am smarter then that, and your games,
well I will not participate.

So tell her what you want, and say what you will,
Just let it be known,

I always get the last thrill.

Go Away

It's the broken heart that doesn't stop aching,
It's the stomach that doesn't stop turning,
It's the eyes that don't stop crying,
It's the mind that doesn't stop searching,
It's the open door, that invites you,
It's the emotion that pours through,
that keeps you away.

{Horoscope}

Your friends may find it hard to believe that you feel so good today. They think that something must be lurking in the shadows behind all your bright smiles. Fortunately, they may be wrong. Nevertheless, deeper issues can surface now, eventually casting doubt on your self-worth. Don't worry about what anyone else thinks; just be yourself.

{Burnt Out Emotions}

I'm the light bulb that is burnt out
You flip the switch,
and nothing happens.

I'm the stool you stand on,
to remove this dead circuit.

and when you go to the closet,
searching for a replacement.

You'll realize there isn't one.

I've always been a firm believer in everything happens for a reason.
The reason may not be apparent at the time, or next week,
but maybe several monthes later,
you realize you made the right decision, and all along
thought it was wrong.
Am I ever grateful I had a gut feeling that pushed me,
to make the decision I did,
and now a new born childs life, will not be affected or ruined,
because of a decision that I didn't make.

There is no better feeling, then knowing you did the right thing

Thank you Karma <3

{Past}{Present}{Future}

Sometimes,
We need to stop analyzing the past,
Stop planning the future,
Stop trying to figure out precisely how we feel,
Stop deciding with our mind,
What we want our heart to feel,
Sometimes,
We just have to go with,
Whatever happens,
Happens.

Bonnie&Clyde

behind every great story,behind every great mans down fall
comes even a better story about a woman and a wall
this wall is unlike any wall that u know
its width is unknown,its not high its not low
why is it there, for protection and pride
it keeps your heart safe,your feelings inside
now here comes a man,who's heard of this wall
rather good looking,nice smile,quite tall
but looks don't matter if hes skinny or fat
the wall has no eyes,it takes more than that
now if he's done this before,he wont use a line
hey baby whats up? cause he knows you'll decline
instead he'll use humor,charisma and charm
nice conversation,a touch on the arm
he'll tell a few jokes,a few laughs are shared
now you feel comfortable,you're no longer scared
he might even distract you with a poetic chant
and surpass all other guys,because he'll do what they cant
because as he distracts you with the things he'll do
he'll find a hole in the wall and make his way through.

you could be big, small, little, tall, it wouldn't matter, cuz I love you
you could be fast, slow, high, low, it wouldn't matter, cuz I love you
you could be forwards, backwards, sideways, or upside down, and it would not matter, because I love you, and I love you just the way you are.

It's not possible
It is not attainable
I usually don't think of things that way
but in this case it is fact
not controlled by you or me,
a simple fact of the way things are.

If there was words for every emotion.
What would be the point of feeling.
I'm all about expressing myself.
Sometimes it just isn't possible...or at least possible to do it they way you want it to come across.
If you want me.let me know.if you don't.let me go.

Whatever I did, I'm sorry, just treat me like you used to.
Figuratively

It's an open concept, closed door, kind of life.

Perfect Imperfection

If everything in life was perfect,
then there would be no need for dreams,

If there were no need for dreams,
there would be no need for love.

If there was no need for love,
there would be no need for life.

Finally

The words I have been writing fall into place and make sense to my heart.

Where there is love there are no expectations, no dependency.
I do not demand that you make me happy; my happiness does not lie in you.
If you were to leave me,
I will not feel sorry for myself; I enjoy your company immensely,
But I do not cling.

Is it the wrong answer I am looking for

Or

The wrong questions I am asking

I am slowly going crazy 123456

Is it me.
Is it something I just can't wrap my head around.
Am I afraid?
Afraid of life, love, losing it all over again.
Afraid that I have let you in too far already.
Afraid that is all slipping away from me.
Afraid yes..

Am I falling?

Am I falling fast?

Is my heart racing?

Because I am pretty sure feeling your heart beat against my hand, is the closest I have ever felt to a person, I don't know what to expect.

I feel like I am walking on egg shells, and for no reason at all.
You didn't do anything.
You are just you.

I am just ME

Paranoid, optomistic, but I always expect the worst case scenario.

Maybe I ask you what's wrong because I feel like I did something.
Maybe I did.
Maybe I can't accept the burn, the truth, or even the lie.

I feel sick, you know the feeling you get when it is all ending.
I feel like that. I might be wrong. I might be right.
But I know you didn't say,

"good night"

I feel like I am irrational at times.
I feel like I have no control.
I feel like you can hurt me, and I don't know who you are.

{RandomFact}

I don't blog about my life because I don't think I am cool enough

I've worked hard to get where I am.
I have overcome a lot of emotions.
I have opened up to a lot of emotions.
And I have let go of some to.


A time comes in your life when you finally get it...
When in the midst of all your fears and insanity you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out - ENOUGH!

Enough fighting and crying or struggling to hold on. And, like a child quieting down after a blind tantrum, your sobs begin to subside, you shudder once or twice, you blink back your tears and through a mantle of wet lashes you begin to look at the world through new eyes.


You awaken to the fact that you are not perfect and that not everyone will always love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are... and that's OK. (They are entitled to their own views and opinions.) And you learn the importance of loving and championing yourself and in the process a sense of new found confidence is born of self-approval.

You realize that much of the way you view yourself, and the world around you, is as a result of all the messages and opinions that have been ingrained into your psyche. And you begin to sift through all the crap you've been fed about how you should behave, how you should look and how much you should weigh what you should wear and where you should shop and what you should drive how and where you should live and what you should do for a living, who you should sleep with, who you should marry and what you should expect of a marriage, the importance of having and raising children or what you owe your parents.

You learn that you don't know everything, it's not your job to save the world and that you can't teach a pig to sing. You learn to distinguish between guilt and responsibility and the importance of setting boundaries and learning to say NO.

You come to the realization that you deserve to be treated with love, kindness, sensitivity and respect and you won't settle for less. And, you allow only the hands of a lover who cherishes you to glorify you with his touch... and in the process you internalize the meaning of self-respect. And you learn that your body really is your temple. And, just as food fuels the body, laughter fuels our soul. So you take more time to laugh and to play.

Shoulda known better

Dear Unfit Mother,
I hate how fucking stupid you are.
The thought of you makes me want to hurl.
You have 4 of the cutest smartest and most polite little girls I have ever met.
You claim they are your world.
But you can't even provide them with beds, let alone their own rooms.
You barely feed them, your youngest gets her bum changed only if shes leaked through, or took a crap (and thats several hours later)
You hardly make sure the laundry is clean.
All these girls have is eachother.
You have failed as a mother.
Your inability to provide a stable lifestyle, and GET OFF THE DRUGS, disturbs me deeper then you will ever know.
Not only do you snort coke, smoke weed/cigarettes, but now you eat oxies and anything else you can get your hands on. ALL INFRONT OF YOUR CHILDREN.
Great Example you are setting.
Oh but wait...you don't do drugs, you only smoke pot.
You are so fuckin full of shit your eyes are brown.
If that is the fuckin truth, then back it up with a fuckin piss test,
you worthless fucking waste of skin.

Diets are fuckin stupid

We have this idea that love is supposed to last forever. But love isn't like that. It's a free-flowing energy that comes and goes when it pleases. Sometimes it stays for life; other times it stays for a second, a day, a month, or a year. So don't fear love when it comes simply because it makes you vulnerable. But don't be surprised when it leaves, either. Just be glad you had the opportunity to experience it.

I had a dream once, that I met you.
But I didn't know who you were,
Just a passer by,
but today I found you.
Hidden under little white lies

Dear Mason

Every morning, when I wake up,
and I get to see your face

I know that I was put on this Earth to be your mommy,
and it's irrelevent how bad things are or seem,
You always make me smile, and nothing else matters.

light me up

It's the smile that I know I have when I see you.
That's my favorite part.
No one can make me smile like you can.

My bestest at her best <3

fuckin love you lol

Heart Shy

She closes her eyes,
She breathes deeply,
She counts to 3,
She makes a tiny promise to herself,
that she won't care what he thinks,
because he'll think she's beautiful.

He closes his eyes,
He takes a deep breath,
He smiles,
He knows she is watching,
He wants her,
to let go of her fears,
and he would never make her uncomfortable,
He whispers a tiny secret, but without saying a word
I want to love all of you.

She has to let him first.


She thinks it's beautiful.