Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Hello Blog World

I had a really hard time thinking about what to write as my first blog on here.
Your first blog does define you in the realm of blogging does it not??
Anyways for my first blog on this damned website that I see I will not probably be addicted to as much as I will be to fakebook I decided to write about...Change..in people, things, surroundings, LIFE in general.

The more things change, the more they stay the same. I'm not sure who the first person was who said that. Probably Shakespeare. Or maybe Sting. But at the moment, it's the sentence that best explains my tragic flaw, my inability to change. I don't think I'm alone in this. The more I get to know other people, the more I realize it's kind of everyone's flaw. Staying exactly the same for as long as possible, standing perfectly still... It feels safer somehow. And if you are suffering, at least the pain is familiar. Because if you took that leap of faith, went outside the box, did something unexpected... Who knows what other pain might be out there, waiting for you. Chances are it could be even worse. So you maintain the status quo. Choose the road already traveled and it doesn't seem that bad. Not as far as flaws go. You're not a drug addict because we all know sweet mary jane is not a drug dammit. You're not killing anyone... Except maybe yourself a little. When we finally do change, I don't think it happens like an earthquake or an explosion, where all of a sudden we're like this different person. I think it's smaller than that. The kind of thing most people wouldn't even notice unless they looked at us really close, or know you really well. Which, thank God, they never do. But you notice it. Inside you that change feels like a world of difference. And you hope this is it. This is the person you get to be forever... that you'll never have to change again...but you know that change is just around the corner again, wether it is changing back to what you used to be because you found what you used to be was really you and you only changed that part of you because you THOUGHT you were something else that you really aren't...ok I am rambamammmling now ha!