Thursday, December 30, 2010
{blacksickness}
Somewhere inside the icy depths of a chest
that has long been stabbed,
faintly quivers
a heart with no purpose left to give.
Struggling to go beyond the pain,
in search for love again.
Fighting for the breath
it so desperately needs to live.
Love brought the murder of my peaceful heart
before it ever had the chance
to truly beat.
Now silence
overthrows my being
and a blindly
cherished
victory
is seen
more clearly
as defeat.
Beaten to misery
but not completely broken
is this organ that cries out for peace in the night.
Now that my heart has been stolen
this pen that I hold
yields no might.
{LastNight}
I tossed and turned and cried all night.
I couldn't breathe and I couldn't fight,
the tears kept falling, no matter how hard I tried.
I can't wrap my head around this misery,
and I can't control my sadness.
I can't let go of memories,
and I can't stop the madness.
All I've ever really really wanted,
is to feel wanted.
I couldn't breathe and I couldn't fight,
the tears kept falling, no matter how hard I tried.
I can't wrap my head around this misery,
and I can't control my sadness.
I can't let go of memories,
and I can't stop the madness.
All I've ever really really wanted,
is to feel wanted.
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Monday, December 20, 2010
{TimeIsTicking}
The hours turn to minutes
turn to seconds
turn to now
The feeling in the room is suffocating
turn to seconds
turn to now
The feeling in the room is suffocating
Friday, December 17, 2010
{NoGames}
What childish behavior of a man
This is real, this is life
This isn't your xbox live
My emotion is real
My pain is real
I am not a just a part of your world, I am a part of the world.
Care More
Blame Less
This is real, this is life
This isn't your xbox live
My emotion is real
My pain is real
I am not a just a part of your world, I am a part of the world.
Care More
Blame Less
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
{DayInDayOut}
The only thing I really really want; is to be wanted.
I don't care about....,
the colour of my living room, or
that my sheets don't match my pillow cases.
I don't care about....,
the colour of my living room, or
that my sheets don't match my pillow cases.
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
{OpenWiDe}
I refuse to cower to your walk.
I no longer care if you choose to keep your back to me.
With "friends" like that who needs enemies..
Let me push that knife a little deeper,
only hoping you choke harder.
I no longer care if you choose to keep your back to me.
With "friends" like that who needs enemies..
Let me push that knife a little deeper,
only hoping you choke harder.
Friday, October 29, 2010
{JackOfAllBullShit}
Please don't knock on my door.
Please don't call my phone.
Please feel free to forget as I am.
I no longer wish to carry a heavy heart.
I no longer wish to carry you.
Respect is earned and trust is gained.
You have failed to overcome the barriers of my heart.
Please don't call my phone.
Please feel free to forget as I am.
I no longer wish to carry a heavy heart.
I no longer wish to carry you.
Respect is earned and trust is gained.
You have failed to overcome the barriers of my heart.
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
{LosingYou}
It's about that time
I now see
The stars have alligned
and you're not for me.
My head, my heart, my body.
It will be hard to walk away.
I must think about about how many times you've walked away from me.
How many times you've lied to me.
How many times you've let me cry.
How many times you've let me down.
How many times I begged for you.
How many times you begged for me.
How many changes you promised.
How many promises you broke.
How many pieces you've broken me into.
How many times I've let you in.
But this will be the only time I let you go.
Forever Not Yours
xo
Thursday, October 7, 2010
{RecipeForDisaster}
1 Table
1 Pad of paper
3 Pens
1 Torn Heart
1 Confused Head
Generously sprinkle selfish thoughts after baking for 6 monthes.
There comes a point where you have to sit down and weigh the pros and cons of what you have and what you want.
Once completed you must decide if you will give up everything you have, don't want, and do want. Your sanity, your home, your life.
Will you forever be chained by the actions of another person.
Will you forever wonder what if.
If yes then it means a new chapter should start.
A chapter where you start to live, you let go, you leave.
A chapter that allows you to love, be loved, and your concience doesn't scream at you with every fibre of your being that you're not doing the right thing... wait wait... not that you aren't doing the right thing, but you aren't doing the right thing for yourself.
How long until the egg cracks and the walls of this glass house, quiver and shatter with disbelief of the waste of life you allowed to take place in your own heart.
This isn't supposed to make sense.
1 Pad of paper
3 Pens
1 Torn Heart
1 Confused Head
Generously sprinkle selfish thoughts after baking for 6 monthes.
There comes a point where you have to sit down and weigh the pros and cons of what you have and what you want.
Once completed you must decide if you will give up everything you have, don't want, and do want. Your sanity, your home, your life.
Will you forever be chained by the actions of another person.
Will you forever wonder what if.
If yes then it means a new chapter should start.
A chapter where you start to live, you let go, you leave.
A chapter that allows you to love, be loved, and your concience doesn't scream at you with every fibre of your being that you're not doing the right thing... wait wait... not that you aren't doing the right thing, but you aren't doing the right thing for yourself.
How long until the egg cracks and the walls of this glass house, quiver and shatter with disbelief of the waste of life you allowed to take place in your own heart.
This isn't supposed to make sense.
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
{TragicallyYou}
Sometimes skulls are
thick.
Sometimes hearts are
vacant.
Sometimes words
don't work.
thick.
Sometimes hearts are
vacant.
Sometimes words
don't work.
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
{Accuracy}
Today's Full Moon in your 4th House of Domestic Conditions suggests that you don't know as much as you think about what's happening on the home front. You may be fooling yourself by believing that everyone is happy when, in fact, someone close to you is working hard to cover up his or her insecurities. Although you think it's best to pretend that you don't notice, you won't get away with ignoring the truth for long.
Another lie unfolds,
another doubted gut instinct.
It's not love if you make me second guess myself...
Especially when I was right all along,
and you've convinced me I'm wrong.
I'm broken. You broke me.
Blinded and empty.
Another lie unfolds,
another doubted gut instinct.
It's not love if you make me second guess myself...
Especially when I was right all along,
and you've convinced me I'm wrong.
I'm broken. You broke me.
Blinded and empty.
Friday, August 20, 2010
{At Some Point}
We all have had an epic heart break,
an unforgetable heart ache,
You know the one that you think will never go away,
convinced yourself it would be the death of you.
I hate that ache.
I hate that it's possible to love someone so much it hurts,
to give someone that kind of key.
an unforgetable heart ache,
You know the one that you think will never go away,
convinced yourself it would be the death of you.
I hate that ache.
I hate that it's possible to love someone so much it hurts,
to give someone that kind of key.
Thursday, August 19, 2010
{DeepDarkDrowning}
It's a moment after the fact,
I still don't feel quite right.
I can have what I want,
But do I want it?
Is it a temporary want,
Will you let me keep it.
I still don't feel quite right.
I can have what I want,
But do I want it?
Is it a temporary want,
Will you let me keep it.
Monday, August 9, 2010
{I Don't Want To Need You, But I Do}
We could take a second to try and hold on to this moment,
I'd rather own it,
Own this moment,
Make it mine,
Like you weren't here.
I'm breathless when I'm around you,
and dead without you.
Being away from you is hurting my self worth.
I'd rather die than be helpless to
save
you.
Save me.
We can make a happy mess,
I don't care whos impressed.
I want your love forever wrapped between my fingers like the silk nightgown.
Let us consemate this love and bring
feeling to these words.
I'd rather own it,
Own this moment,
Make it mine,
Like you weren't here.
I'm breathless when I'm around you,
and dead without you.
Being away from you is hurting my self worth.
I'd rather die than be helpless to
save
you.
Save me.
We can make a happy mess,
I don't care whos impressed.
I want your love forever wrapped between my fingers like the silk nightgown.
Let us consemate this love and bring
feeling to these words.
Thursday, July 29, 2010
{PlayonPlayed}
You're stuck on me,
I can't hide,
You're stuck on me,
no one can deny,
but can't you see I'm broken,
nothing left to give,
I'm wrapped up in my own thoughts,
and no I won't let you in.
I made a mistake before,
I made that mistake several times,
THIS time, it's different,
all though it was supposed to be different,
that time before,
and the time before that,
and the time before that..
but here you are,
still at my door...
Don't you see,
I have no love to give you.
Anymore.
I can't hide,
You're stuck on me,
no one can deny,
but can't you see I'm broken,
nothing left to give,
I'm wrapped up in my own thoughts,
and no I won't let you in.
I made a mistake before,
I made that mistake several times,
THIS time, it's different,
all though it was supposed to be different,
that time before,
and the time before that,
and the time before that..
but here you are,
still at my door...
Don't you see,
I have no love to give you.
Anymore.
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Friday, July 23, 2010
{RainRainGoAway}
You can't rush a feeling no matter how hard you try.
It's always seen through black eyes when something doesn't feel right.
Until the storm has passed, until the rain is gone, nothing feels alright.
To be strong, is to give in and let hurt consume you.
To be weak is to feel,
Every OUNCE of pain, and let flow through you freely.
Just so you don't forget.
To be weak is to allow yourself to take it in,
and breathe it out.
Even if you let a tear or two(thousand) go,
at least you're crying out the pain,
freeing youself from the hurt,
and opening your heart
to a whole new world
of pain.
Thursday, July 22, 2010
{Brighten}
Don't stand up,
STAND OUT.
Don't speak out,
SPEAK UP.
Open your mind to the world around you,
take a look at the world that surrounds you.
Close your eyes,
and dream a future.
Don't wait for your future to conjure up a dream.
Don't forget to put your hands out when you fall.
Don't forget to fall for whatever you believe is yours.
Dim the lights, and take a flight.
Feel the rush, of another's touch.
Let love consume you.
STAND OUT.
Don't speak out,
SPEAK UP.
Open your mind to the world around you,
take a look at the world that surrounds you.
Close your eyes,
and dream a future.
Don't wait for your future to conjure up a dream.
Don't forget to put your hands out when you fall.
Don't forget to fall for whatever you believe is yours.
Dim the lights, and take a flight.
Feel the rush, of another's touch.
Let love consume you.
Friday, July 16, 2010
Stand out, because you blend in with the background,
She wrote a rebellion.
I know there’s nothing here I can’t live without except you, my love
She will go on…
Over my head, and you’re over me again,
And she fell over my head, and you’re over me again.
Shut up, it’s the fairy-tales that save us,
I don’t believe either.
It makes no sense to tell you that I love you
When you’re gone, you’re gone and now you’re gone
Over my head and you’re over me again,
And she fell over my head and you’re over me again.
And now I see you right beside me but you won’t say my name.
I’m sorry I failed you when I was right beside you, now you don’t feel,
You don’t feel the same.
Stand down, ‘cause this is when I count you as part of the background
I will go on…
Over my head, and you’re over me again
And she fell over my head, and you’re over me again,
But I’m over you again.
She wrote a rebellion.
I know there’s nothing here I can’t live without except you, my love
She will go on…
Over my head, and you’re over me again,
And she fell over my head, and you’re over me again.
Shut up, it’s the fairy-tales that save us,
I don’t believe either.
It makes no sense to tell you that I love you
When you’re gone, you’re gone and now you’re gone
Over my head and you’re over me again,
And she fell over my head and you’re over me again.
And now I see you right beside me but you won’t say my name.
I’m sorry I failed you when I was right beside you, now you don’t feel,
You don’t feel the same.
Stand down, ‘cause this is when I count you as part of the background
I will go on…
Over my head, and you’re over me again
And she fell over my head, and you’re over me again,
But I’m over you again.
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
{KnockKnockWhosThere}
It's you again..
This is getting old..
My eyes have dried..
My heart is getting cold..
I don't long for you these days
My nights are calm and true
I've finally let go, and relized
I need anything BUT you
This is getting old..
My eyes have dried..
My heart is getting cold..
I don't long for you these days
My nights are calm and true
I've finally let go, and relized
I need anything BUT you
Monday, July 12, 2010
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
{ReWindReVerseReHashReLearn}
I can only allow myself to follow these empty halls of heart valves for so long
Up and down these vein wide stair wells
Open my eyes, as they are so black with hate I can not see
Guilt consumes these vocal cords
just give a little push.
like a pin, into a cork board,
I feel the pressure on my heart
to give way and let the sharp cold tip push through
this loveless life, hung high for all to see
love for all but me
please just let me be
Up and down these vein wide stair wells
Open my eyes, as they are so black with hate I can not see
Guilt consumes these vocal cords
just give a little push.
like a pin, into a cork board,
I feel the pressure on my heart
to give way and let the sharp cold tip push through
this loveless life, hung high for all to see
love for all but me
please just let me be
Sunday, July 4, 2010
{ScaredToBreath}
She's begging him and asking why it's over.
She won't cry this time.
I wish you could tell me what she said.
It's different every time.
I saw the reasons, without asking why... I wish you could tell me what she said.
I'm torn apart enough.
My heart can't accept love.
When you try and pull me in, I just can't take it.
When you touch me I see every smile, caress, and kiss there ever was.
I'm prepared to take the fall, the truth was there all along,
Don't know how I missed it.
I lost my way, took this too far, and for that I will never find the pieces of my heart.
You can carry them in your pocket, or string as a necklace.
Forever untrue and only you will ever really know, what she said, I wish you could tell me what she said..
She won't cry this time.
I wish you could tell me what she said.
It's different every time.
I saw the reasons, without asking why... I wish you could tell me what she said.
I'm torn apart enough.
My heart can't accept love.
When you try and pull me in, I just can't take it.
When you touch me I see every smile, caress, and kiss there ever was.
I'm prepared to take the fall, the truth was there all along,
Don't know how I missed it.
I lost my way, took this too far, and for that I will never find the pieces of my heart.
You can carry them in your pocket, or string as a necklace.
Forever untrue and only you will ever really know, what she said, I wish you could tell me what she said..
Friday, July 2, 2010
{BetterThanYou}
I'm the type of girl that can be so hurt,
but can still look at you and smile.
I'm the type of girl who is willing to brighten your day,
even if I cant brighten my own.
I'm the type of girl that goes out of her way,
to make sure you get everything done, that you need to do.
I'm the type of girl that sacrifices simple pleasures,
just to have an extra moment to spend with you.
I'm the type of girl,
that you should have never had the pleasure of falling asleep next to, coming home to, or tearing apart this safe part of heaven that once was my own.
but can still look at you and smile.
I'm the type of girl who is willing to brighten your day,
even if I cant brighten my own.
I'm the type of girl that goes out of her way,
to make sure you get everything done, that you need to do.
I'm the type of girl that sacrifices simple pleasures,
just to have an extra moment to spend with you.
I'm the type of girl,
that you should have never had the pleasure of falling asleep next to, coming home to, or tearing apart this safe part of heaven that once was my own.
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
{KeepSmilinBabe}
I know you didn’t think I’d let you slide forever with that bullshit you runnin like whatever is whatever, you were blind from beginning had the laugh of an angel now I wish you’d slide down the cliff, skin tangled.. just so you could feel the way you make me sick, from all those lies you told to be my number one pick, damn a buster, now I cant trust ya, saw a shadow of a man, I really hope you suffer cuz you wasn’t right you were never true and I bet you miss me now how’s that dirty chigga-boo, and no one ever told you to watch nice girls every chick has basic instincts, even nice girls, pick your mouth up off the floor and don’t ever try to speak when you see me in the club or try to hi to me in the streets , but just to be nice I hope you find a nice wife, who tortures you forever what a beautiful life <3
{AreWeThereYet}
I'd like to say I woke up this morning feeling like a basket of sunshine,
but FUCK,
I didn't even sleep.
Every doze off session involved a dream of something terrible.
Why did I do this to myself?
I want to be hollowed out.
My soul feels dark.
but FUCK,
I didn't even sleep.
Every doze off session involved a dream of something terrible.
Why did I do this to myself?
I want to be hollowed out.
My soul feels dark.
Monday, June 28, 2010
{ThisDayNow}
It's a new day, another sunrise, another sunset,
another sleepless night of agony and misery.
When I wake up I hope this feeling will pass,
time heals all wounds right?
Time to let go, and start all over.
another sleepless night of agony and misery.
When I wake up I hope this feeling will pass,
time heals all wounds right?
Time to let go, and start all over.
Thursday, June 24, 2010
{NotWorthy}
I've been going through emotional hell because of you.
I always thought I had promised myself I would never let anyone do that to me {again}
This just goes to prove that we really can't "control" ourselves.
Our "feelings" rule our lives, and our hearts rule over our "minds".
You have given me a lot these past few monthes.
Smiles I never thought I could bare.
Tears I never thought I would cry.
Love I never thought I could feel.
Hope I never thought I would have.
I've been there for you, done things for you, opened myself to you.
You have your own "issues"
But I feel like I am the issue.
I want off this roller coaster; I feel sick
I wish I never fell for you, I wish I never met you.
I was almost happy being alone.
I always thought I had promised myself I would never let anyone do that to me {again}
This just goes to prove that we really can't "control" ourselves.
Our "feelings" rule our lives, and our hearts rule over our "minds".
You have given me a lot these past few monthes.
Smiles I never thought I could bare.
Tears I never thought I would cry.
Love I never thought I could feel.
Hope I never thought I would have.
I've been there for you, done things for you, opened myself to you.
You have your own "issues"
But I feel like I am the issue.
I want off this roller coaster; I feel sick
I wish I never fell for you, I wish I never met you.
I was almost happy being alone.
Saturday, May 29, 2010
{MakingHerStory}
I have found almost everything written about love, to be true.
Never apologize for feeling, when you do so, you are apologizing for truth.
Never apologize for feeling, when you do so, you are apologizing for truth.
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Friday, May 14, 2010
{GCWM}
The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider Freeways , but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.
We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.
We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.
We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things.
We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.
These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete...
Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.
Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.
Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.
Remember, to say, ' I love you ' to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.
Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.
Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.
We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.
We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.
We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things.
We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.
These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete...
Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.
Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.
Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.
Remember, to say, ' I love you ' to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.
Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.
Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
{OrangeUglaDididntSayBanaNA}
I want to get lost in a moment...
one that lasts for more than 30 seconds.
I want to let you in for a moment...
but that means trusting you for a lifetime.
one that lasts for more than 30 seconds.
I want to let you in for a moment...
but that means trusting you for a lifetime.
Monday, May 10, 2010
Saturday, May 8, 2010
{Where'sMYheadAT}
I must be stupid, must be stupid, must be fucking stupid.
Coffee? Why the fuck would you think that is a good idea.
I have not forgot.
I want to when you reach me though.
If I could forget this wouldn't seem so bad.
Why are you here, why why why.
You never told me and you spent the night.
Took all I had to fight the urge of giving in.
BUT I did not give in. I am not stupid, don't talk to me like I'm stupid...
It feels good knowing I didn't, itd feel better knowing
I DID, and without attachment, but that's impossible.
Coffee? Why the fuck would you think that is a good idea.
I have not forgot.
I want to when you reach me though.
If I could forget this wouldn't seem so bad.
Why are you here, why why why.
You never told me and you spent the night.
Took all I had to fight the urge of giving in.
BUT I did not give in. I am not stupid, don't talk to me like I'm stupid...
It feels good knowing I didn't, itd feel better knowing
I DID, and without attachment, but that's impossible.
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
{LASTChance}
You have dark mysterious eyes but I see through them.
You're disguised and I can tell.
You attempt normality immediately.
You give me the same smile you did when I was 16.
"You dropped your pocket kid"
No you dropped your pocket... Of regrets.
The past is the past, and none of it matters at this point.
Express you're love and gratitude to the very last day, don't take time to apologize, make a memory, a peaceful moment of being content and having an open heart.
Digest the moment slowly and take time to enjoy it.
This is a huge part of your life and your next move is truly just YOURS.
Love is love, is love;
You care and he knows, whether you say it or not, but say IT.
You're disguised and I can tell.
You attempt normality immediately.
You give me the same smile you did when I was 16.
"You dropped your pocket kid"
No you dropped your pocket... Of regrets.
The past is the past, and none of it matters at this point.
Express you're love and gratitude to the very last day, don't take time to apologize, make a memory, a peaceful moment of being content and having an open heart.
Digest the moment slowly and take time to enjoy it.
This is a huge part of your life and your next move is truly just YOURS.
Love is love, is love;
You care and he knows, whether you say it or not, but say IT.
Saturday, May 1, 2010
{theRapy}
Watching my favorite movie, all the thoughts I just had left my head.
Lately my thoughts have been twisted by emotions. What does that mean? If you've been left dumbfounded by someone you almost cared about too much, then you know what it means.
How does a heart become captured?
How do you get the fairness of mother nature?
Why don't I take swing dancing classes that I've been dying to take?
None of this makes sense. I am okay with that. This is not for YOU (whoever you are). This is purely
For
Me
I feel like I'm having a midlife crisis and I'm only 22.
My dog is the only being that just is. Always happy to see me and never talks back.
These past few days I've let myself just be. And it sucked. I don't want to just be. I want to just be something important, to something, someone, anything outside of my life that I can't reach. I need to feel that rush of being an appreciated person to someone insignificant, and just because.
Conform, I will not.
Open up truly, I shall not.
MmmC (all that matters)
Lately my thoughts have been twisted by emotions. What does that mean? If you've been left dumbfounded by someone you almost cared about too much, then you know what it means.
How does a heart become captured?
How do you get the fairness of mother nature?
Why don't I take swing dancing classes that I've been dying to take?
None of this makes sense. I am okay with that. This is not for YOU (whoever you are). This is purely
For
Me
I feel like I'm having a midlife crisis and I'm only 22.
My dog is the only being that just is. Always happy to see me and never talks back.
These past few days I've let myself just be. And it sucked. I don't want to just be. I want to just be something important, to something, someone, anything outside of my life that I can't reach. I need to feel that rush of being an appreciated person to someone insignificant, and just because.
Conform, I will not.
Open up truly, I shall not.
MmmC (all that matters)
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
{ForMe}
I am ok with this decision because I can walk away knowing I MADE THE RIGHT CHOICE.
I will not let you make a fool of me.
I will not let you make me cry.
I am not an object, I am a person, I have feelings (well I did)
I no longer wish to be a part of your game.
I hope you understand, and I hope you are ashamed.
You will be letting go of the best thing that ever happend to you, and it will all be because I TOLD YOU TOO.
I will not go on letting you make me feel this way.
It's not FAIR, it's not RIGHT, and
I DESERVE BETTER.
I just had to see that.
I am over IT.
I will not let you make a fool of me.
I will not let you make me cry.
I am not an object, I am a person, I have feelings (well I did)
I no longer wish to be a part of your game.
I hope you understand, and I hope you are ashamed.
You will be letting go of the best thing that ever happend to you, and it will all be because I TOLD YOU TOO.
I will not go on letting you make me feel this way.
It's not FAIR, it's not RIGHT, and
I DESERVE BETTER.
I just had to see that.
I am over IT.
Friday, April 23, 2010
Thursday, April 22, 2010
{ClosedEndingFeelings}
Objects of obsession,
give way for new affections.
Damn this strange attraction,
to the way that you've been acting.
give way for new affections.
Damn this strange attraction,
to the way that you've been acting.
Monday, April 19, 2010
{5YeaRsAgO}
I met the one. The one that was meant for someone else. And I'm Happy.
Even Though I.
Deal.
With THIS.
EVery. SiNGLE. DAY.
I miss the 109210920192 TiES.
Even Though I.
Deal.
With THIS.
EVery. SiNGLE. DAY.
I miss the 109210920192 TiES.
Monday, April 12, 2010
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Monday, March 29, 2010
{I'mMoreThanaVageen}
I'm an open minded, small hearted, big mouthed, bitch.
I am living, breathing, proof, of stupidity.
I am the best you ever had, the worst you've ever known.
The one you'll always miss, and the one you bid farewell.
I'm high class, giving sass, sexy ass, a woman.
I ooze sex, nice breasts, but I have a brain too.
I'm not her in the skank skirt, or her with the hippy hair... not even her with the fashion passion.
I am multi.
I am PURPLE.
I am the one, was the one, will be the one.
I deserve happiness, and misery.
I deserve love and hate, a kiss with fate.
A true prince of understanding, open loving free spirit blade of grass, piece of ass, hot sex, what's next....
brush with death.
I am living, breathing, proof, of stupidity.
I am the best you ever had, the worst you've ever known.
The one you'll always miss, and the one you bid farewell.
I'm high class, giving sass, sexy ass, a woman.
I ooze sex, nice breasts, but I have a brain too.
I'm not her in the skank skirt, or her with the hippy hair... not even her with the fashion passion.
I am multi.
I am PURPLE.
I am the one, was the one, will be the one.
I deserve happiness, and misery.
I deserve love and hate, a kiss with fate.
A true prince of understanding, open loving free spirit blade of grass, piece of ass, hot sex, what's next....
brush with death.
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Thursday, February 4, 2010
{EverythingKnown}
Dear Lucky,
Don't ever let go.
Hot sauce should always be on your grocery list, because to him it's like ketchup.
Music is his weakness, his lifeline, his world, no matter how much he says he loves you.
He's a collector of sorts so watch out, those magazines and records can pile up fast.
His closet is ridiculously organized.
A tie for him, is suitable for any occasion.
Winter makes him sad, usually.
He doesn't function without coffee, and he never hears his alarm.
He'll tell you things are fine when they aren't, but you can always get the truth out of him if you play with his hair.
No matter how much his mom bugs him, he would do anything in the world for her, and knows, she is pretty much, ALWAYS, right.
He'd rather be with people than alone,
Cold rather than hot,
and naked rather than clothed.
He is yours, and you're the one, he just won't admit it yet.
- Eternity
Don't ever let go.
Hot sauce should always be on your grocery list, because to him it's like ketchup.
Music is his weakness, his lifeline, his world, no matter how much he says he loves you.
He's a collector of sorts so watch out, those magazines and records can pile up fast.
His closet is ridiculously organized.
A tie for him, is suitable for any occasion.
Winter makes him sad, usually.
He doesn't function without coffee, and he never hears his alarm.
He'll tell you things are fine when they aren't, but you can always get the truth out of him if you play with his hair.
No matter how much his mom bugs him, he would do anything in the world for her, and knows, she is pretty much, ALWAYS, right.
He'd rather be with people than alone,
Cold rather than hot,
and naked rather than clothed.
He is yours, and you're the one, he just won't admit it yet.
- Eternity
Haiti Concert
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
{TooLittleTruthTooLate}
Time has a wonderful way of showing us what really matters.
It's interesting how a person can make a decision of permanent fate without even blinking an eye.
How selfish.
Or is it?
As every day passes, the memory just becomes further away instead of yesterday, but it is still fresh as though I just came home.
Every day that you go through, pulls you closer to what you have, and pulls you further from what you want.
Life is unfair, especially in the unwritten book of love.
It's interesting how a person can make a decision of permanent fate without even blinking an eye.
How selfish.
Or is it?
As every day passes, the memory just becomes further away instead of yesterday, but it is still fresh as though I just came home.
Every day that you go through, pulls you closer to what you have, and pulls you further from what you want.
Life is unfair, especially in the unwritten book of love.
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