Horoscope

There is a lot going on behind the scenes, yet you still could be a bit cavalier as you talk about your feelings. You may think that change will occur more easily now, yet nothing much will happen unless you can find the courage and take a risk. What you see is exactly what you get. There's no time like the present to ask for what you want.

Nobody has the ability to be exactly like me, even I have trouble doing it. I live, laugh, and love. I break the rules, stand apart, ignore my head, and follow my heart. You may call me weird, but I'm just original. There's nothing wrong with being lonely, but I wish I could fall in love. Your mouth would crack a smile if i were spoken of. If you tell me my dreams are unrealistic, I'll tell you yours aren't big enough. I want my face to be infallibly carved with laugh lines when I'm old and gray to reveal the happiness I've lived to know. I'm a wishful thinker with the worst intentions. The real trouble with my sarcasm is that half the time, when people think I'm being sarcastic, I'm actually being quite sincere. I believe if you get a chance, take it; if it changes your life, let it. I'm not afraid to fail; it's part of learning. Everything I'm not made me everything I am. Music reminds me of who I was, who I am, and who I have the strength to be. I believe, procrastination is the art of keeping up with yesterday. I believe that optimism is the foundation of courage. Love never fails; people fail love.

Atmosphere

Cheers to the good times,
tonight is mighty special.

Whatcha gonna do?
Slam doors, break a glass?
Maybe pass out on the kitchen floor with your naked ass
he still makes time to hate me
But basically, I'm overbooked - no emotional vacancy
Complacency seems so simple
Like fuck it, let me be the one you fight and call Mrs. Right
It's an addiction, bound to stick around
'Cause a junkie won't bounce till he hits the ground

These drugs ain't as good as we wish they were
This buzz doesn't keep us from missing her
That love that built all of this emphasis
Built enough guilt to kill Electra and Oedipus
It's easier to leave it there
Each time I see your tears
Makes me need a beer to relieve the fear
I wanna keep a clear sky
And fly away like a meteor outta here
Maybe next year I'll reappear

Chorus:
I say hey there
We don't play fair
You can't stay here
I hope you take care

Sample:
Troubles all around me
Day by day

Slug:
Sometimes you make me feel like such a prick
That even I'm convinced that I'm the one that's sick
You can fuss and bitch, you can cut your wrists
Or you can choke on that blood from the tongue you bit
And when you acted up, you BESTA believe I blessed you back
I got a fuckin' fan base that can attest to that
I'm returning this bleeding hearts club membership card
'Cause I want no motherfucking part of it

We're just two dogs on all fours
It's a tug of war for who loves you more
Blame it on tours, or locked bathroom doors
Or maybe it's cause my voice was louder than yours
And I'll be damned if I do this for forever
Everybody looking at me like I don't know better
Instead I gotta run if I'm ever gonna forget him
Cause I've always been a go-getter

Chorus:
I say hey there
We don't play fair
You can't stay here
I hope you take care

Sample:
Troubles all around me
Day by day

And now I got a head full of better off dead
I followed down them steps and slept in the wrong bed
If I had a breath of self-respect left
I'd set fire to the box spring to help it catch
Let these ashes represent the mattress
Director left the set, but nobody told the actresses
So she's still acting as if we scheduled a practice
And my soundtrack is compromising her theatrics

Bridge:
(You) You remind me of me
It's not a compliment, get your song on
(You) Who you trying to be?
Got no tolerance left for drama
(You) You would like to go free
Jump off the fence, let your claws out
(You) You remind me of me
Rough up all of them till they gone

There, here we go ahead with my threats to leave
Like I've ever left cause it was he who wouldn't let me breathe
Instead I kept it deep enough to get you to believe it
That I'm incapable of escaping and setting you free
Well, I'ma open up that map and see the nation
Call it vocation, call it a vacation
You can find me at the airport, waitin'
Or maybe I'll be chain smoking down at the train station
With the pose of a mack and my clothes in a sack
Gotta go, and I don't know when I'll be back
Get my last pay check, smash and make steps
Gone on the road with cool-G rap in the tape deck

Sample:
Please have mercy on me
Please have a little mercy on me

Chorus:
I say hey there
We don't play fair
You can't stay here
I hope you take care

Sample:
Troubles all around me
Day by day

There is no connection between the things that you say, and the things that you do.

I never said I was perfect.

Bored got this from BJS FB

Would it hurt seeing someone kiss the last person you love?
Depends on my moodswings I guess

When was the last time you cried?
umm 7ish this evening

If you could go back in time would you change things with an ex?
no, everything happens for a reason, I may have changed myself a bit so I could be happier

Where were you at 5:00 AM this morning
laying on the floor in the living room

Who are you thinking of, what does their name start with?
M


Last person of the opposite sex to give you a hug?
Kai at the zombie shoot

Does sex mean love?
no but sex with someone you love means more

In the past week have you gotten kissed?
at least a dozen times from Mason <3

Ever kiss someone with a name starting with a S?
...odd yes

Is it easier to forgive or forget?
forget

Do you get emotional easily?
yes

What month were you born in?
november

How old was the last person you kissed?
17 monthes

Would you kiss the last person you dated again?
that is a tough one

Are you taller than 5'5"?
no

Do you think what goes around always comes back around?
yes

What are your initials?
A.M.E

Do you like talking on the phone?
sometimes

What are you doing Friday?
packing

What are you doing Saturday?
hanging out with Mason anddd packing

What about Sunday?
sleep

When was the last time you were told you were cute?
yesterday by melody

What is bothering you right now?
where to start

Does anyone know your password besides you?
no

Do you look at the keyboard when you type?
never

Will you talk to the person your in love with tonight?
yes


What were you doing 30 minutes ago
creeping facebook

What's something that can always make you feel better?
may not always make me feel better but it can help me forget for a while and sleep
sweet mary jane

When was the last time you talked to your number 1?


Do you eat junk food everyday?
no

Is there one place you'd like to visit?
Italy

Have you held hands with anyone today?
no

You have to get a facial piercing, what do you get?
monroe

You have to get a tattoo, where and what do you get?
aids?

Are you afraid of falling in love?
yes

How many hours did you sleep last night ?
2 maybe

Ever given your all to someone who walked away?
Yes

Is there anyone you trust who you shouldn't?
probably

Do you think you would make a good lawyer?
yes I am good at arguing I guess

Is there someone you can't stop thinking about?
a few

When someone walks out of your life, do you go after them or let them go?
go after, then let go

Is there someone you want to be with right now?
yes

Do you like someone as more than a friend right now?
yes

If you're being extremely quiet, what’s it mean?
not happy

Do you think the legal drinking age should be changed?
should be raised

Something you really want right now?
to hold my baby while he sleeps

Do you think you're old?
ya

Who told you they loved you last?
Mason

Has a girl put their arm around you in the past 15 days?
yes

Will you be in a relationship in 4 months?
no

Is it hard leaving people behind?
yes

What is wrong with you right now?
hahah this is good, what isn't?

Do you fall for people easily?
no

Would you ever dye your hair blonde?
no

How old do you look?
18-21

Can you handle the truth?
probably not

Anything you'd like to say to anyone?
I'm going to be happy

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
yes, but never a third.

Does anyone like you?
sometimes

Anything you're giving up on?
anyone?

Do you care what people think about you?
not really

Have you ever done something to start trouble?
probably

Do you call anybody by their last name?
no

Have you ever been called a bad influence?
yes

Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?
yes

Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?
Yes

Do you ever wish you were famous?
Yes

Would you take a bullet for the last person you were in love with?
my son needs me

Do you wish someone would just call you?
no

Horoscope

Today it feels like you can see forever. You look out toward the boundless horizon and you are certain that the distance has moved even further away. But this is just a trick of the light, for your mind is capable of managing your current wanderlust, even if it remains unrealized. Temporarily set aside the notion of being satisfied. Once you take the pressure off, you'll probably have an easier time of reaching your goals.

Dad's Advice

Don't stress over things you can't control.

I didn't sleep last night
I laid on the couch and stared at the ceiling for hours
I wanted to fall asleep but I couldn't even close my eyes
I didn't want to think about it
It's all over now, forced to make a decision
but I am sure it is my fault.
I always take the blame anyways,
I'm done being that girl,
the one who freaks out and begs you to stay
especially because I really didn't do anything wrong
it's my fault you misunderstood,
it's my fault you lost your temper,
threw a tantrum, and said hateful things
about me, and my life,
because "I am so busy trying to make things work at home"
obviously you can't understand the importance.
You are only thinking about how it is affecting you.

Sometimes it isn't meant to be.
Sometimes you pack up your feelings, and you move.
You can only allow them to be bruised so many times before you give up trying.
Weather it's the tone of my voice,
the words I speak,
or the stares of emotion I give,
it's not right.

This is the last I'm sorry you will get from me.

May life bring you many pleasantries and love.

and...todays horoscope

You may be unsettled today as your passions are stirred, without necessarily revealing a path to expressing them. It's challenging for you to find the patience to sit with your feelings to see where they take you. But ignoring your emotions isn't a good idea, for they will gain strength and resurface in a form that's even harder to handle than the current situation

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and there is a million things that should have never happend
there is a million words that should have never been spoken.
life is traumatic enough and so what if you made the biggest mistake of your "life"
it goes on, and you will make even bigger, more traumatizing, absolutly regretful mistakes then the first one...
so it is time to learn to just get over it, move on, and be happy.
if one person loved you another one can.

you can take me, want me, break me,
love me, hug me, push me off,
hold me down
as long as it is you