Melody curly hot hilarious my BFFF my tiny dancer my sister one of my best soul mates black neon hardcore best laugh ever always makes me smile spoiled stubborn cool green sweaters bang random big heart rocker my bfff
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Nothing lasts forever I wish more people (including myself) could learn to accept that.
Everything has an expiry date, and there is always a time to let go. Even when you don't want to, when you aren't ready to do so. Before you know it the wind is blowing and you are on to your next chapter in the book of life.
Everything happens for a reason. Death happens for a reason, maybe it isn't all negative. Maybe when people pass away, its partly to do with the people that get to remember them. And appreciate their presence during their time with us, and appreciate it more when they no longer are. People you never forget, always the 'best' have to leave us, but they are still watching.
Sorry for this window of randomness, it's just one of those days. I want a jager manhatten martini now please
Cranberry is the only type of jell-o with real fruit in it.
Confidence is sexy. The ability to have confidence is impacted by a few things. Such as other people encouraging you, that gives confidence. Believing in yourself, that builds confidence. And succeeding, that is confidence, that forever makes you feel confident when you put your mind to something, achieve that goal and cross that line.
Say what you want. Think what you want. Act how you want. Talk how you want. Eat what you want. Be who you want. Live like you want. Listen to what you want. Appreciate what you want.
everytime I read sunday secrets, I cry to more then one of those secrets, because it reminds me of a secret I have (no I don't have herpes lol)
Friday, August 15, 2008
I've awoken to many things seen what love can bring cried so many tears over all these years dealt with all this crap learned to smile back gave up on you the right thing to do
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
It's like getting your hand slammed in the car door, theres nothing you can do about the pain, except bounce around and curse. Wait for it to go away. Oh how I wish you'd go away.
I'm proof that you don't have to look like a model to have a super hot boyfriend
She told me I changed. Well that I am aware of. Sorry that I have discovered more of myself over this past year. Sorry that I am not the same person I was when you met me... all though I never thought that was a bad thing. I never put thought that I changed for the worst... and I still don't believe that I have. I may have changed the way my hair looks, maybe even the way I dress, I may have added a new piercing, a new boyfriend, a new job, but all of this makes me happy, and isn't that what counts? Plus I still have the same morals, and values (if not better ones) and I still have the same heart (which has grown to accept more pain,love, and hate then you could even dream)
I only say that because you are stuck in this bubble, nothing bad can happen to you, nothing is ever your fault. apparently, because I changed I left some good friends behind, hey I never left anyone behind, y'all left me. Just to make that clear.
Everyone thinks you are just so perfect, and that you could do no wrong, you always help out, do what your told, blah blah blah but really, you have no back bone, won't defend yourself, let your ex walk all over you, and tell you complete bull shit that, i myself have a hard time believe YOU believe.
But you do, and you make it more dramatic then it already is, and somehow I am in the middle, somehow it is someone elses fault, somehow you are not to blame, nor could you have possibly done anything to deserve it. You're just to perfect, you have it all going for you, the looks, the body, the brains (book brains), the laugh, and oh jesus christ you're just so damn awesome you probably piss glitter.
Until you have something to say, that's worth me listening to, just FuCk OFF
Shut up and let me go This hurts, I tell you so For the last time you will kiss my lips Now Shut up and let me go Your jeans were once so clean I bet you changed your wardrobe since we met
Now oh so easily your over me Gone is love It's you that ought to be holding me I'm not containable This turns up it's not sustainable
I ain't freakin' I ain't Fakin' this I ain't freakin̢۪ I ain't Fakin' this I ain't freakin' I ain't Fakin' this Shut up and let me go Hey!
Shut up and let me go This hurts, but I can't show for the last time you had me in bits Now Shut up and let me go! For fear of leaving in regret I changed this one when we first met
Now oh so easily your over me Gone is love It's me that ought to be moving on You're not adorable I was something unignorable.
I ain't freakin' I ain't Fakin' this I ain't freakin I ain't Fakin' this I ain't freakin' I ain't Fakin' this Shut up and let me go Hey!
Oh love, hold this. hey
Shut up and let me go This hurts, I told you so For the last time you will kiss my lips Now Shut up and let me go Hey!
I'm sorry for all I never said, I'm sorry for all the visits I never made, I'm sorry that our family is so fucked up, and you had no idea, actually I'm not sorry for that, I wanted you to believe we were all happy. I'm sorry that I will never recieve a $15.00 Sears gift certificate at birthdays and holidays anymore, all though you would be happy to know I have every one you have given me since I was 12, and they are all expired, I wanted to keep them to remember you. I'm sorry that I didn't make you laugh as often as you deserved, I'm sorry that the phone calls weren't routine at all. I'm sorry if you were ever disappointed by anything I did, I'm greatful that you have gotten to live a long fulfilling life. You have seen so many amazing things through the times, and you have survived through so much. You are a beautiful and strong woman, and I will always look up to you, and only hope to be as wonderful and as strong as you are. I love you Great Grandma, I know the best angels will guide you in.
the fireworks many different colours aray always a disappointment they always end and nothing really lasts forever...figurativley speaking
and she has never given herself so much to a person without them knowing she would marry him, but he doesn't know and he proposed to her, not for her hand in marriage but for her heart to be forever his
she accepted
and life was sugar plums and mountains of trees with a roaring water fall and a small daisy growing in a dry patch of grass