Wednesday, December 31, 2008

A new year
A new love
A new life
A new goal
A new aspiration
A new home
A new outlook
A new necklace
A new friend
A new year

Another year past
Another love lost
Another life left behind
Another goal Achieved
Another aspiration completed
Another home of memories not forgotten
Another outlook relooked at
Another necklace in the garbage
Another friend I realized I am better off without
Another year I am happy is over.

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

I did


I've made mistakes in my life, I will admit.
I've let people take advantage of me.
And I've accepted WAY less then I deserve.
But I've learned from my bad choices and
even though there are
some things
I can never get back,
and there are some people that,
will never be
sorry.
I'll know better next time, and I will never settle for less then I deserve.

Monday, December 22, 2008

unfortunately you are bitter.
if you can't say anything nice, then don't say anything at all

Thursday, December 18, 2008

I hate waiting
the longer you wait
the harder it is to deal with
the harder it is to go through with it
no matter how right the decision is
waiting is the hardest part
because when you wait,
you think,
when you think,
you go over every 'what if'
and it's all over from there
then your heart is confused
is it right?
is it wrong?
could I do it?
could I fail?
I just wish it was over with.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

she has fair skin
and her eyes are pretty
her heart is open
but no one is aloud in.
It's where she hides her darkest secrets,
It's where they are best kept.
I can smile, and pretend it's all okay
You'll never know the difference,
you don't even know me.
you don't know the words
I don't know the way...

to tell you is to hurt you, and I want to do both.

Horoscope

Although your life is looking up these days, it may be hard to take an opportunity and turn it into something very concrete. Several big pieces seem to be in place now, yet they don't fit together as simply as they should. Don't try to force it if it isn't working. Soften your stand and let events unfold on their own schedule, not yours

Monday, December 15, 2008

It starts as...

a mistake, an accident, something slipped, something missed,
resulting in a being, a person, a heart beating inside your heart,
and you make the choice...

and he'll never know

Friday, December 12, 2008

Horoscope

Your convictions run strong now and you are quite focused on your long-term plans. Yet at the same time your thoughts are running all over the map; you don't even know where to begin as you attempt to regain control. Unfortunately, your friends and partners can make matters worse by testing you with a variety of distractions. Nevertheless, you have the tools and the drive to stay on track; it's your choice to use them.

When Life Gives You Lemons, Paint That Shit Gold

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

nothing like you

Because, I will not die with sadness in my heart

Monday, December 8, 2008

I think I can

It is all about having faith in yourself,
if you believe in yourself, you can do anything.

I was so busy putting my faith into other people
that I forgot about me

I forgot that I have my career to start, my friends and family to enjoy, and most importantly, that I have a life to build with my son.

This is my chance, to do good by the world, and instill good values and goals in my son, I want him to know anything is possible, any dream, any goal, as long as you have faith.

I want to give him everything I didn't have,
I want him to have respect and be rewarded in life for all the good he does.

I can lead him to the path's and I hope he chooses the right one,
and if I can influence him enough to do good, my life is lived to its fullest.

I love you Mason, more then anything in the world,
You are my purpose in life,
You are my heart.

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

If only positive was negative