You Got Me Buzzin Over You

Dear Clyde,

I like you

I like everything you do to me

I like the way you look at me, and LOVE the way you think

I like the way you act

I like the way that you are more often then not very reliable

I like knowing that you will grow up (more then you have) (when you are ready)

I like watching you get older, cuz let's face it you are going to be one sexy old man (your dad heh)

I think you have so much potential and in due time you'll max it out

I like that 'you really DO care'

Everyone could have it 'so much better'

Everyone lies to themselves

And everyone sometimes believes their own lies, and others too

Everyone makes stupid choices, me, you, ozzie, the guy that lives on the corner

You deserve the best

I think you are amazing

and have nothing but the utmost faith in you.

I like that you aren't like everybody else,

I like that you are incredibly smart even on the stupidest topics,

You always have a valid point, and you always make it.

You always have a smile to light up my day,

or a sweet little comment, that randomly is thrown my way.

You have goals and dreams as we all do,

I believe you will reach them, BUT YOU HAVE TO TOO

I hope you will let me, be there to encourage you

cheer you on, and make things happen.

Yours Truly,

Bonnie

If her hearts not in it,

then she knows she did the right thing,

but if her mind would stop torturing her,

telling her she's a fool 

she would feel much better then she does now.

Her heart knows...

It's really over

He's let her go,

Told her it's okay,  I know we won't work

It feels like relief, but I won't lie

It hurts like a bitch.

Part of me wanted to hear it,

Part of me wanted him to not be over it,

But he is and I am happy,

Now I don't have to feel like I am letting him down,

Or for that matter, giving him hope.

I do love him and he loves me, but it is definitely not the lasting romantic love

I always dreamed I would have, sadly, truly....

So now that I am feeling safe about the new life I am going to have (and soon)

I have a list of things to do

1. Get my own place! Looking at three places tomorrow and they all look very promising and affordable yay!

2. Get used to the 1 income lifestyle and not 2 all though life is so much easier with two, definitely need a budget planner!

3. Find a roommate or something of the sorts

4. Get myself a new bed

5. Get some old 'friends' out of my life

6. Let the good friends be more a part of my life

7. Try new things at every given chance at least once probably twice 

I feel good. Really fucking good.

And the stress leaves her with an upset stomache

and a bad taste in her mouth,

the sour taste of resentment,

wishing she could go back and change things not for herself but for him,

things could have been different,

just when she thought things were better,

she thought was happy,

and that like a slap in the face,

shes hit with a whirl wind of troubles and sorrow,

and doesn't want to turn to anyone,

only to the inside of her heart,

she knows her heart won't tell,

her heart won't judge

and she feels stupid for letting the tears fall

but at least she is alone and no one can see

no one but her

Making Up For It

Time rehearses the past and then,
Wakes up in the future,
A horizon of hope,
A landscape of a dream,
A pathway of discovery,
Weaving a pattern of desire,
Time understands itself,
by going in the right direction,
No matter how we turn,
The Earth only spins one way.
Making up for lost time,
and life reinvents itself.

Sunny Muffins!

And I would love to Bonnie and Clyde a Pizza Pizza with you any day of the week

Lets update 'The List'

1. Make Amber better at hack

2. Go camping

3. Go on a hike

4. Go on a picnic

5. Fishing :) you said
6.Go to a winery

hooked on this feeling

You've got me hooked on a feeling,

A feeling so pure and natural, it almost feels fake

Like a dream

A dream I hope never to be woken from,

For the first time ever it's as if it's right

As if after all the hell I've been handed over the years

Finally I am getting a break

Oh what a break it is

So calm,

So easy,

So refreshing,

You've gone and put meaning back in into my life,

Just the thought of you and the light in my heart turns on,

So bright you can almost see it casting from my chest,

You're the reason I see sun on a cloudy day,

If I was asked to trace out a memory to forever hold,

I would trace out your lips with my finger tips

The one that that can always keep me captive

time and time again

Long Weekend

Ahhhh

How I love the long weekends,

Good time, and even better good friends!

This is the first 'May 24' that I have celebrated, and so far so good,

minus the drunk girls stepping on me and spilling their drinks everywhere,

what a waste, and minus the guys, that followed me around at some bar in the falls,

creeepppyyyy. SaturDAY was great, beer, smokeage, my bff melody ha, and some good hack

to bad I suck at it lol I WILL GET BETTER.

Let's put that on the list

1. Make Amber better at hack

2. Go camping

3. Go on a hike

4. Go on a picnic

5. Fishing :) you said 

there is more but i can't remember right now as I have had close to no sleep, and thoughts of you have kept me up all night

Love long weekends <3

Better Than I am

You make me better than I am,

You make me want to try,

Your eyes so full of wonder,

Make me wonder why.

I can hold you in my arms, 

and try to make you smile,

I know this time is short,

I'm enjoying this a while.

You make me better then I am,

You make me want to care,

About how the world will  be later,

About what we have to share.

You've made me realize,

How precious it all is,

How fragile life can be,

How much I've got to give.

You make me better than I am,

Like every thing is brand new,

With all the hopes and dreams,

With all there is to do.

You're my inspiration,

You make me say "I can"

You make me want to try,

You make me better than I am  

Ok, I can understand wanting to be someone else,

or wanting to live like someone else,

but to actually dress up and impersonate someone else because you are that obsessed with them

is just creepy.

That is all

April was good
Will May be better?

I have a feeling it . . .

We all die, the goal isn't to live forever. The goal is to create something that will.

"dreams are always crushing when they don't come truebut it's the simple dreams that are often the most painful because they seem so personal, so reasonable, so attainable. you're always close enough to touch but never quite close enough to hold and it's enough to break your heart."
-Eddie Vassar

What we provide is an atmosphere of orchestrated pulse which works on people in a subliminal way. Under its influence i've seen shy debs and severe dowagers kick off their shoes and raise some wholesome hell.

The creative person is both more primitive and more cultivated, more destructive, a lot madder and a lot saner, than the average person.

Over It

It can be a nice thing when your friends want to advise you of how you should be living your life...or more specifically who you should be living your life with...

Aren't friends supposed to listen and give an opinion maybe, but not sit there and tell you why you shouldn't feel that way and what you really need to be feeling.

Unfortunatly I am human, I can not make feelings that are not there....be there...
As much as I care for the person and love him, I just don't feel he is the one I should be with for years to come.

I have learned to accept it now if everyone else could that would be great

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I've got a smile and a heavy heart,

not heavy as in sad....heavy as in I am so filled with happieness with every smile you give me I feel like I could burst. It seems to be the way you look at me with those eyes, and I can't tell what you are thinking but I know it is something good.



So let's take a ride down this winding road,
Let's listen to that song you wrote.
Hold my hand and don't let go,
There's so much more I want you to know.



In due time.