Whenever you are entering a relationship with a person,
the biggest fear is that their family or friends, or both, won't like you.
I think I have conquered both now....for the time being!
Monday, June 16, 2008
Friday, June 13, 2008
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Monday, June 9, 2008
Somewhere inside the icy depths of a chest
that has long been stabbed,
faintly quivers a heart with no purpose left
to give.
Struggling to go beyond the pain, in search
for love again.
Fighting for the breath it so desperately
needs to live.
Love brought the murder of my peaceful heart
before it ever had the chance to truly beat.
Now silence overthrows my being
and a blindly cherished victory is seen more
clearly as defeat.
Beaten to mysery but not completely broken
is this organ that cries out for peace in the night.
Now that my heart has been stolen
this pen that I hold yields no might
because of you
What do you do when the person you have become,
is due to the horrible things someone did to you and put you through,
He was supposed to be the one to guide me,
to dry my tears when my heart was broken,
to tell me the good boys from the bad,
to tell me I am beautiful and smart when I need to hear it most,
daddy's little girl,
that's what I was supposed to be,
but not to you not to anyone.
I thank you though,
You taught me the type of person to not become,
the art of letting the little things go,
because the big things are much harder to forgive
you are the bigger thing, how do i forgive you
how do i put all the hurt and memories away
to start a new chapter with you
to let you be the father you wanted
its a little late, I am not a teenager anymore, I am not a child
I am a woman, I am my own person,
you can't give me a time to be home,
make sure I do my homework,
ground me,
but that is what you should have been doing
instead of being the loser dead beat that you were
Yes I said that and yes I am pretty sure I mean it
The saying goes the good outweighs the bad,
in this case that is completely untrue
the bad far outweighs the good
and I am not sure I can let you in
because of you I feel I have tragic flaws that I can never make up for
and to others they probably aren't even that tragic,
but my mindset is different.
When I look in the mirror, I see a girl that did without
not the material things (all though I did that to)
but with out the emotional love that a girl should have for family and friends.
I did without what is supposed to be the greastest most fondest memories of a girl,
and her father.
I have had the hardest time deciding who's best for me,
part of that I thank you for and part of me despises you for it
My heart has a hard time telling whats real and whats not.
I am afraid to put my all in to anything, because I did that with you
and you let me down, let me down hard.
I crashed and burned, just like you did.
No song can tell it like this one
is due to the horrible things someone did to you and put you through,
He was supposed to be the one to guide me,
to dry my tears when my heart was broken,
to tell me the good boys from the bad,
to tell me I am beautiful and smart when I need to hear it most,
daddy's little girl,
that's what I was supposed to be,
but not to you not to anyone.
I thank you though,
You taught me the type of person to not become,
the art of letting the little things go,
because the big things are much harder to forgive
you are the bigger thing, how do i forgive you
how do i put all the hurt and memories away
to start a new chapter with you
to let you be the father you wanted
its a little late, I am not a teenager anymore, I am not a child
I am a woman, I am my own person,
you can't give me a time to be home,
make sure I do my homework,
ground me,
but that is what you should have been doing
instead of being the loser dead beat that you were
Yes I said that and yes I am pretty sure I mean it
The saying goes the good outweighs the bad,
in this case that is completely untrue
the bad far outweighs the good
and I am not sure I can let you in
because of you I feel I have tragic flaws that I can never make up for
and to others they probably aren't even that tragic,
but my mindset is different.
When I look in the mirror, I see a girl that did without
not the material things (all though I did that to)
but with out the emotional love that a girl should have for family and friends.
I did without what is supposed to be the greastest most fondest memories of a girl,
and her father.
I have had the hardest time deciding who's best for me,
part of that I thank you for and part of me despises you for it
My heart has a hard time telling whats real and whats not.
I am afraid to put my all in to anything, because I did that with you
and you let me down, let me down hard.
I crashed and burned, just like you did.
No song can tell it like this one
Sunday, June 8, 2008
you touched me last night
and i felt it deep within,
as my heart skipped a beat,
my thoughts wandered thin.
till there was only you
as far as i could see,
your brown eyes looking into mine,
it's where i wanted to be.
you touched me last night
not with your hand or your soft lips,
you touched me with your heart,
far better than any kiss.
Thursday, June 5, 2008
Cheesey oldies? <3
It's the stars
It's the cars
It's the birds
It's the kids in the park
It's the sunglasses
the smiles
It's the feelings,
the dreams,
the wanna be thoughts
she wanted it to be real for so long
it is almost hard to grasp that it is.
Almost..
She's amazed at how the smallest gesture makes her fall even more
who thought it was possible, not I
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A world of dreams,
a soft pillow,
a sweet thought
a thought that makes you smile
a thought that makes your heart beat faster
and it's always a thought of you
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