I didn't sleep last night
I laid on the couch and stared at the ceiling for hours
I wanted to fall asleep but I couldn't even close my eyes
I didn't want to think about it
It's all over now, forced to make a decision
but I am sure it is my fault.
I always take the blame anyways,
I'm done being that girl,
the one who freaks out and begs you to stay
especially because I really didn't do anything wrong
it's my fault you misunderstood,
it's my fault you lost your temper,
threw a tantrum, and said hateful things
about me, and my life,
because "I am so busy trying to make things work at home"
obviously you can't understand the importance.
You are only thinking about how it is affecting you.

Sometimes it isn't meant to be.
Sometimes you pack up your feelings, and you move.
You can only allow them to be bruised so many times before you give up trying.
Weather it's the tone of my voice,
the words I speak,
or the stares of emotion I give,
it's not right.

This is the last I'm sorry you will get from me.

May life bring you many pleasantries and love.

and...todays horoscope

You may be unsettled today as your passions are stirred, without necessarily revealing a path to expressing them. It's challenging for you to find the patience to sit with your feelings to see where they take you. But ignoring your emotions isn't a good idea, for they will gain strength and resurface in a form that's even harder to handle than the current situation

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{RandomFact}

There are 10 human body parts that are only 3 letters long (eye hip arm leg ear toe jaw rib lip gum).

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and there is a million things that should have never happend
there is a million words that should have never been spoken.
life is traumatic enough and so what if you made the biggest mistake of your "life"
it goes on, and you will make even bigger, more traumatizing, absolutly regretful mistakes then the first one...
so it is time to learn to just get over it, move on, and be happy.
if one person loved you another one can.

you can take me, want me, break me,
love me, hug me, push me off,
hold me down
as long as it is you